Moving Forward

2007 - The year of the big trip.

I'm planning to go over seas this year and although the details are still a little sketchy, the plan is coming together nicely. I've been thinking of doing this trip for a long time now but every time I'd imagine doing it I could always think of many very good excuses why I couldn't do it yet.

I've run out of excuses.

It's terrifying. I'm going to put my things in storage for 6months paid in advance and I'm going to go to Chile with a one way ticket. I'll come back when I've had enough. That could be 2 months, it could be 2 years. If it's 2 months I'll take my time finding a new home, and I'll couch surf in Australia for a while. If it's 2 years I'm really really going to miss the kids.

I don't think this will be a permanent move. I love Australia and I love my family and to be away from them for too long will be very painful.

One pain that I know will be unavoidable however, is that I will have to say goodbye to my Viejito. He can't come with me on this journey and I can't hold back for him. And despite whatever happens on my trip I know that when I leave, it will be the end for us.

Until I leave I'll try not to think about the end. I will revel in every moment we have together and I'll make no excuses for loving him. If anyone has an issue with us they can get fucked. I'll not have the few precious moments left to us be clouded by anyone else's judgement or bullshit.

I'm excited and scared, happy and sad all at the same time.

And who will look after my plants?