I Try

So we are supposed to not be seeing each other anymore.
I love him, he loves me, but he says it just can't happen.

So I go out tonight with the express intention of doing something to get him out of my head. I find some friends, I drink some beers, I smoke some weed and I set out to flirting my arse off with everyone and anyone.

But I just can't get him out of my head.

I dance, I shmooz, I even have a party pash. NOthing. I try really hard to fake enough interest in some random so that I might be tempted to go home with him. NOthing. I end up playing mother to some friends who will otherwise spend the night in the gutter then I come home and try again not to think about him. I can't help myself.

Some people tell me I can do better. Some people tell me time will heal this broken heart. Some people tell me it just wasn't meant to be. It's just noise to me. All I know is I love him and I miss him and nothing I do makes the pain any more bearable.

I just wish he would come back to me and love me for ever. Is that so much to ask for?