I´m trying.
I´m really trying.
But it just seems like I´m missing something, like I´m doing something wrong. This wasn´t supposed to be this hard. I´ve walked around for hours in the city today and although there has been some good points, there isn´t the amount of smiling I was hoping for.
I´m a city girl. This is supposed to be where I find it easy. I did Sydney on my own for years and it was never this hard. Not always easy but never this hard.
Ilse says I´m being too hard on myself. That I should take it easy and slowly become accustomed to the city and the country I´ve dropped myself into. Maybe she´s right. I just didn´t think it would be so difficult.
I´keep comparing myself to other I know who have done trips like this to some foreign land and I don´t recall any stories of feeling this low. But I guess I have dived in the deep end on my own. Still is that enough of an excuse?
Maybe if I met more people. Esther suggested I should do couch surfing and although I had seriously considered it for other places I just assumed living with the family here in Santiago would be easy. Tia Anna is wonderful, and Daniela is great but they aren´t in holiday mode with me and I think I´m finding it hard to find my groove without anyone to keep pace with me.
I so wish Mum was here. I so wish Esther was here. I wish they were all coming sooner so I could have someone to play with.
3 comments:
hello gorgeous,
hang in there, it will improve. I promise that things will get better and that in 6 months you will be having the time of your life and won't be missing home at all. If all else fails we would love to have you back :)
xxxx
Abbie
x
Hey Tish!! Good to see you are blogging. Add more photos! Dont worry about feeling sad and home sick. The first two weeks i was in Madrid were the pits for me. I was jetlagged and out of synch. I was stil not fluid with the lenguage and everyone seemed grumpy and unfriendly! I remember calling mum reverse charges from some public phone and crying my eyes out! It will get easier as you make connections with the locals :) Seek them out on line, ask around for scooter people, there must be others around like you. Go out get a gig guide, find out what the other travelers are doing, find out where the local gigs are. You'll find your feet soon, remember this is a unique moment in your life!! Enjoy it Tish, be yourself, do what comes naturally, have fun. We all love you and miss you!! Bear and Wolf
TISHKA!!!
((((GIANT SCOOTER HUGS TO YOU ))))
I'm so excited I found your blog (thanks to Chalkster!)...and we miss you honey...but hang in there. New places always take some time for adjustment...and a new country...well that will need MORE time :) HEck I'm still trying to get use to moving house...and its in the same city!! lol!
Hugs to you - Sonya
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