Piercings

Wednesday 26 April 2006, 5:17pm

People do all sorts of things to deal with personal pain and sadness. Go shopping, get a facial, pick a fight, get wasted, drive fast, kick something etc. I find what works best is to inflict different pain on myself.

As a teenager this took the form of self mutilation with just about any sharp shiny object I could find. These days it's a little more refined and a little more socially accepted but it amounts to the same thing.

I just had my lobes increased from 2g tunnels to 00g. The throbbing pain on either sides of my head seems to soothe the pain of my confused and angry heart. The burning discomfort as I do up my helmet blocks out all feelings of loss and hopelessness. The steeled look in my eyes as I grit my teeth hides the look of sadness I've worn all day - that sadness that makes strangers on the street shower you with pity because they can see it so clearly.

I have to get ready for work. A layer of make up to hide my red eyes and handful of hair goop to accentuate my shiny new ears...